Xanga Post Monday July 18, 2005

Actually, I finished the new Harry Potter sometime yesterday afternoon.  I couldn't help myself.  I did accompany some people to Barnes and Noble at midnight on friday.  It was ridiculous.  We had some of the first armbands for people who didn't pre-order the book (see, I'm not that obsessive) but as we were standing there, Drew Worsham wondered aloud if WalMart would be as crazy as B&N.  Since we had time we went there and found them wheeling out a whole pallet of books.  We grabbed one and walked right out.  Plus it was 50% off.  I will say nothing about the book itself including my opinion for fear of ruining something for someone else.  However, I'd love to hear from you about it.  So, call, email, im, whatever.

Also, i've started a new discipline in my life.  From here on out I will constantly be reading something.  I will alternate between novels and some other sort of book.  Next up, Uprising by Erwin McManus then By Sorrow's River by Larry McMurtry, who by the way is the greatest living American novelist in my opinion (see Lonesome Dove, Last Picture Show, Terms of Endearment, etc.).

I also haven't been posting for awhile because I began to feel some pressure to make my posts meaningful.  Why?  Because I'm sick in the head.  I will try to get over it.

However, with regard to some of my previous posts...  In my pursuit of actually knowing God more, I am constantly wanting to hear Him better.  But I have discovered that more often than not He speaks to me not about Himself per se but about me.  And through a better understanding of my self I grow in my understanding of Him.  I know that sounds New Age, but it's not.  Let me explain.  God is constant and forever, never changing, the same yesterday, today and forever.  Right?  But I change.  Constantly.  The more I understand about how I currently operate and how I might change I gain insight into how my own personality and views affect how I encounter and interact with God.  Thus, revealing how my presuppositions paint me a picture of Him that may not always be accurate. 

A great portal for this insight is dreams.  If you're one of those people who don't remember your dreams, I'm sorry.  Dreams can reveal deep truths about yourself, how you think, how you feel, how you really view yourself or others around you.  Try to jot them down over the next week or something and see if I'm right.

Until then....  Holla.

xangaChris Kinsley