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These first two were taken by Eric Chapman. He makes me sick. No one should be as talented as he is at as many things as he is.
The rest of these are mine. I’m not near as talented as Eric. Plus, my temporary laptop doesn’t have Photoshop or even iPhoto. So, these are real raw.
Until we report to Brookwood hospital for the birth of our daughter, Story Reese.
I can’t even begin to process all of this. I had a brief moment tonight where I seriously thought a panic attack might have been coming on. But I’m better now, and I’m pretty sure I just needed to get through all of that. Now, I’ll be fine.
I hope.
So many things keep running through my mind. Stuff I need to do. Stuff I wish I had done. I think I’m looking for things I can control and that I know I can do, because tomorrow… well, tomorrow is happening. I mean it feels like I’m just holding on for dear life. Like I’m going hyperspeed in the Millenium Falcon, only I’m like C3PO being thrown back into my seat. I just hope Liza doesn’t have to flip my switch off.
I don’t like not knowing things. I don’t like not being a contributor. I don’t like being out of control. Etc. So, this is good for me.
Plus… it’s like this amazing culmination of all these years of struggle and prayers and fights and worries and hopes and… I don’t know what else.
Everything. It feels like a culmination of everything.
I’m pretty sure tomorrow is going to be the greatest day of my life so far… maybe ever… I don’t know… I’m not sure what else I’m supposed to be comparing it against.
Things I do know right now are…
1. My family is great. And pretty much all of you are included in that, whether related or not. So thanks. Your support and enthusiasm is humbling and amazing. I love you all.
2. Norman Gentle is the best thing to happen to American Idol.
3. Lost is blowing my mind, and I love it.
4. I’m “ready.” I guess. I don’t even know what that means.
5. Liza is currently my hero.
6. Time didn’t stand still for me this week like I would have wanted, but I’m kinda okay with that.
7. I wish I had some chocolate chip cookies.
I don’t know if I’ll blog tomorrow, but I’ll be twittering for sure. So, you can follow things there, if you’re interested.
I don’t have a good ending for this post.
So…
There’s part of me that wants to be Donald Miller. There’s another part of me that thinks I am Donald Miller. Then there’s still another part of me that knows beyond a shadow of a doubt that Don and I could be and probably one day will be great friends.
It feels good to go ahead and get this out there. That way, any of you who have said about me, “he wants to be Don Miller so bad he can’t hardly stand it,” have just had your power taken away. Yes, I do. I know it too, and I’m not really ashamed of it. So, there you go.
Don (I think we’re close enough that I can call him “Don”) has a great post today about the process he goes through in writing a book. For a guy like me it’s really encouraging. I learned a long time ago that I’m not one of those disciplined writers who plan and outline and produce exactly what they set out to do. In fact, with regard to my writing, the word “discipline” rarely enters the picture. In fact, that word hardly applies to any part of my life, but I digress.
I write in spurts.
So, Don has this great post and you should check it out. You can do so here.
Erin replied to his tweet about his post and then he replied to her reply-tweet with a tweet that said, “Thanks, Erin.”
He called her by name.
I’m jealous.
Remind me to tell you my “Meeting Don Miller” story sometime. It’s not that good, really, but I like to brag.
It’s been a while. A long while. Too long.
During my blogging absence lots of things have happened. You would think that would have made me want to blog more. It did. Really. I just never ended up getting around to it.
“Why,” you might ask. Well, I’ll tell you.
In no particular order the reasons for my blogging absence are as follows…
1. Video Games – I’m a gamer. I admit it. I’m not a hardcore gamer, but when I do get a new game, I play it constantly… until I finish… I just finished my latest… and I haven’t bought another one… so there.
2. Tons of Work Stuff – I’m really enjoying my job. There’s a lot of new challenges and a lot of balls in the air (that’s just for you, Erin). I also end up in a lot of meetings. I mean a lot. That’s calmed down a little bit lately, which is good, because I often end up working a decent amount in the evenings (when not playing video games) since so much of my time at work is spent in meetings instead of doing actual work.
3. Freelance – I’ve got two big freelance assignments right now that are extremely fun and very challenging. I haven’t been able to give then near the attention I want/need to, but I do give them attention, which takes away from the blogging.
4. Story – You might have heard me mention my infant daughter. She’s yet to arrive, though she’s scheduled to do so this Thursday. However, there’s been a number of things to do in preparation for her coming. It’s been crazy but exciting. And now I’m (we’re) ready, or at least as ready as we’ll ever be.
5. Slump – I’ve been in a slump, writing wise. It’s been a bad one. A real bad one. It has affected some of the things listed above. I’m coming out of it, which is nice, but not as quickly as I’d like. Plus, my computer crashed on Friday. I lost two days of work, and I still don’t have it back. What does that have to do with my slump? Well, not a whole lot, except that it is just one more thing to throw me off my game. I like to be able to get into a rhythm of things. That doesn’t always happen quickly, but once it does happen I can really churn some stuff out. I had finally hit one. Then my computer went kaput. Now, I’m looking for my rhythm again.
However, I really want to believe I’m back to blogging now, not so much for you guys, though I appreciate each and everyone of you, but for my own sake. I like blogging. It’s good for me for a number of reasons.
Be forewarned, though. A number of the upcoming posts are going to be concerned with Story’s birth. If you’re not into that sort of thing, sorry. You might want to take a break from reading this for awhile. For the rest of you, thanks for taking an interest. I think you’ll really like her.
I don’t know if I totally like this new site, by the way. Feel free to let me know your thoughts. I’m sure I’ll be messing around with it… which will be just one more thing to distract me.
Ooh… look… a fly…
